tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23586512947110888872024-03-12T20:48:36.443-05:00Hello, Cupcake.You can call me Lucky.http://www.blogger.com/profile/05611269516210571765noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2358651294711088887.post-20571831738686602282012-04-08T22:37:00.004-05:002012-04-08T22:57:22.696-05:00Direction.This hasn't been a good year for me emotionally. I seriously think God is testing me. I feel let down, by my family, by friends, by my own body. I feel helpless and hopeless and frustrated. I have a million and one questions, but no answers. I google "how to improve egg quality" only to be bombarded with way to much information and end up with even more questions than answers again.<br />I don't understand God's plan. I ask for direction everyday.<br />All I want is what everyone else seems to have so easily....a baby. Just one is good for me. Why is it so hard? I need just one good egg to work right on that one good day. Just one. But my eggs are bad.<br />You know how you go to the grocery store and you pick out eggs? You open up the carton, you give them a good look. Well, mine are the ones you would put back. Yep. Those are mine. Poor quality eggs. I even have a letter from my fertility doctor to prove it. It's pretty depressing.<br />I have watched almost all of my friends get pregnant. Even the ones with kids already are on kid #2 or #3 now and I am just waiting....still waiting...still asking for direction.You can call me Lucky.http://www.blogger.com/profile/05611269516210571765noreply@blogger.com3